raya yang x happening

aku ade seorang tailor..
tailor nie nama kak ani, die nie mak bekas student aku..
aku dah mula hantar kain untuk buat baju kurung dari tahun 2002 lagi..
sejak kak azean beritahu pasai die...

kehebatan kak ani ialah...
jahitan yang kemas, pandai atur corak kain...
jadi kejadian memalukan seperti corak badan menaik, corak kaki melentang..
confirm x akan berlaku..

bila hari raya..baju aku jadi perhatian geng 1494 jalan maju..
tambah kakak aku yang obses dgn buat baju...
bermula d situ...semua kaum kerabat hj zakaria antar kain pada kak ani..

dari hjh norriah, sampai la kesemua anak2 perempuan die..
sume parking kain d rumah kak ani..
sekali antar paling sikit 2 helai...
time raya, paling murah upah baju raya untuk semua geng pompuan 1494, ialah rm250..
bayangkan la...


aku pun dah rapat dgn kak ani..
kalau p antar kain, wajib lepak 1-2 jam..
borak2, minum air, makan biskut or kuih muih....
kadang2 ade apa2..aku tolong la mana yang patut

tapi raya tahun nie..
kak ani x sihat...die x mampu nak jahit banyak untuk hari raya..
die takut die x mampu nak habiskan sebelum hari raya..

frust sangat..
tambah bulat, episod tahun lepas baju raya x siap berulang lagi..
hjh norriah and kak pun dok ligat cari orang untuk buat baju raya...
tgk, betapa pentingnya baju baru dah hari raya....

untuk kak ani,
jaga diri, minum air banyak2...





selagi kak ani x mampu nak menjahit, aku pun malas nak beli kain....

anak-anak bongsu hj zakaria

the clan

aku ingat lagi zaman kanak-kanak aku..

memula duduk d rumah kecik d tepi pekan kepala batas...bila rumah sekarang dah siap, baru la merasa duduk rumah besar 2 tingkat.

zaman kanak-kanak aku d penuhi dgn aktiviti akademik. sebelum hj zakaria keluar kerje, die akan bagi kerje rumah dekat aku. tulis karangan, cari meaning perkataan bahasa inggeris, hafal asma ul husna. bila die balik kerje, lepas maghrib, die ajar mengaji dan check kerje rumah kami semua, termasuk aku yang x sekolah lagi..

oleh sebab itu, aku cuma merasa masuk tadika 4 bulan je....sebab die kata aku dah cekap sebab die ajar.

hj zakaria nie garang...

kalau malas and buat perangai...merasa la rotan dan tali pinggang..

paling kerap kena, abg chik...

die dgn abg chak..dari kecik x pernah baik...

x boleh duduk sekali..ade je isu nak berkelahi....

selalu la..ade aksi buku library kena campak keluar, paper exam kena rendam dalam air and kena paksa minum sebab tulisan buruk...macam macam denda kitaorang merasa....

ayat hj zakaria mudah je..

"siapa xde ijazah, bapa x kan bagi harta sesen pun".....

waktu tgk tv d catu...

satu je program tv yang die bagi tgk....McGyver...

ganas sungguh hj zakaria...hjh norriah pun x berani..

kalau weekend, suratkhabar die akan sorok. pukul 12 baru die bagi baca.

fius plak tv die akan buka, x bagi aku tgk tv. tapi selambe badak aku beli spare..hehehe

macam2 die buat untuk disiplin kan kitaorang supaya lebih fokus pada study

2010

"jupa, PTPTN si gemuk kena tahan..result bawah 2"

"la, pastu nak bayar dgn apa?"

"bayar duit die la, bapak xmau bayar".......

"jupa, ko tau, si gemuk tu x heran tepon minta duit"

"la, mak xbagitau pasai surat PTPTN tu"

"bagitau, rilek je"

"siap tanya mak lagi...agak2 haji tu nak bubuh duit bila? hahahahah"

"tapi bapak ko dah jerit xmau masukkan duit"...

keesokan hari...

"jupa, lepas subuh start motor terus bubuh duit si gemuk..hahahaha"

bak kata housemate aku..merangkap anak bongsu no 3 dari bawah...

"alah, kata je xmau masukkan duit...kang bubuh juga"..

heheheheheheheh..

mudah rezeki anak-anak bongsu hj zakaria..

tapi yg aku respect dekat anak-anak bongsu die nie....garang mcm mana pun hj zakaria..

TAK HERAN!!!!!!!

selambe je...kadang baru lepas kena pukul..bleh makan sebelah menyebelah...cuit2 kaki..

heheheheheh......

hj zakaria dah x segarang dulu....tambah dengan cucu-cucu yang telah kitaorang orentasikan menjadi pewaris ke"gedik"an kitaorang hahahahaha

true colours..

you with the sad eyes

don't be discouraged

oh i realize

it's hard to take courage

in a world full of people

you can lose sight of it all

and the darkness inside you

can make you fell so small

but i see your true colours

shining through

i see your through colours

and that's why i love u

so don't be afraid to let them show

your true colours

true colours are beautiful

like a rainbow

show me a smile then

don't be unhappy, can't remember

when i last saw you laughing

if this world makes you crazy

and you've taken all you can bear

you call me up

because you know i'll be there...

so, what's your colour???

photo session

praU 2B

every year mesti ade photo session untuk majalah sekolah..

standard procedure die tetap sama..

kerusi dua baris..

yg berjawatan dalam kelas depan...

golongan marhein berdiri belakang....

tahun nie...aku dgn gedik mintak dekat cameraman..

"kitaorang nak buat gaya gedik boleh??? malas la skema.."

every year aku wajib jadi form teacher...every year aku wajib dapat kelas yang happening, merapu dan tidak skema....selari dengan jiwa raga aku...heaven!!!!

kelas 3A3

hari khamis minggu lepas, sampai la gerombolan pengawas PSS SMKTB ke parlimen malaysia
sebelum masuk ke dewan rakyat, kami breakfast dulu d kantin, tajaan Dato Nazri Aziz..
sebelum masuk..pelbagai kawalan keselamatan kami perlu lalui..
handphone dan kamera tidak d benarkan sama sekali...
aku rasa sejak kes datuk Linggam..ini la jadinye..



tugasan d berikan kepada pelajar..
pelajar form 6 perlu buat laporan tentang parlimen...yelah mereka study Pengajian AM....
bila sampai taklimat d berikan...

duduk diam..
sentiasa tunduk hormat bila nak bangun keluar dan masuk ke dalam dewan..
hari itu, En Rashid, pengawai parlimen beritahu...
kami berpeluang melihat ahli dewan berbahas isu panas....
membawa Anwar Ibrahim ke Jawatankuasa kerana mengaitkan kerajaan dan konsep 1Malaysia dengan Israel..melalui syarikat APCO....

"anak- anak......"
"dewan rakyat nie..macam sekolah atau kelas kamu juga"
"sidang bermula jam 10, tepat jam 10, loceng akan berbunyi"
"kemudian Yg Dipertua Dewan masuk bersama cokmar"
"semua kena bangun tunduk hormat tau"....

bila masuk...begitu teruja...
terutama aku la...aku memang gila dgn politik and sentiasa baca blog2 politik...
jadi kerje aku bila masuk je dewan rakyat tu....jadi tukang perkenal orang dekat abg din, pembantu PSS kitaorang...yelah x bawa cermin mata...

"bang din, tu anwar ibrahim, dekat hujung"
"tu sivarasa dah masuk....eh, lim kit siang baru sampai....."

ramai hari tu...puas hati sangat....
ramai yg hadir...dari kerajaan and pembangkang....
tapi yg lawak students aku teruja bila nampak Bung Mokhtar masuk...hahahahahahah
bebudak nie...kena kait dengan artis baru depa peka.....

"kringggggggggg".....jam 10
"doa!"
"setiausaha satu membaca kan perkara yg akan d bahaskan"

kemudian adegan ini pun berlaku..

jerit-pekik-laung-ketuk meja-menyampuk-

"puchong!...saya kata duduk, kalau tidak saya rehatkan anda"
"balik pulau, saya x perly bantuan anda...saya speaker!"
"shah alam! jgn la ganggu!"
"jangan guna point of order sewenang-wenang"


bila kuar je dari dewan rakyat....tergelak aku bila students aku buat statement nie....

"teacher, depa dalam dewan tu, dah macam kelas 3A3!"
"dok jerit-jerit. speaker tu suruh duduk x mau dengar!"
"kalau dapat dekat pengetua, kena rotan dah depa tu"....

hahahahahahahahahhaah

my students in dewan negara...

they were soo excited...



with Mukhriz Mahathir
Ahli Parlimen Jerlun, kawasan kitaorang

untuk lawatan nie, banyak yg cikgu PSS telah usahakan untuk dapat sponsor..

ahli parlimen kitaorang, Dato Mukhriz sangat mudah bagi sokongan untuk program sekolah..

ke KL nie, setiap pelajar dapat tajaan duit makan..die juga minta nak jumpa kitaorang

so, d tengah2 persidangan tersebut, beliau curi masa keluar dari dewan dan berjumpa dgn students...a very nice person...soft spoken and friendly...

die jumpa and salam with everyone ....

yg best, tanpa d minta, die terus beri taklimat ringkas tentang parlimen kepada students.....

pricelesss......

"saya minta maaf la, kamu terlihat kelakuan yg x sesuai tadi d dewan rakyat"

"tapi jgn buat penilaian menyeluruh ye, x semua ahli parlimen berkelakuan macam tu"

mukhriz and students...

hope students aku dapat inspiration dari lawatan ke parlimen nie...mana tau ade yg jadi YB nanti

mata dan dacing

malaysians are now focusing to hulu selangor....
the battle between the government and opposition ...
hehehe the clash of the titans...

the dacing side..is a low profile person who lives in a simple home in rawang..
the mata side..is a well-known lawyer with colourful lives in politics in malaysia...

i am a voter..
what normally a voter looks for in a candidate?

personally,
i consider myself as a silent majority..
we never used our loud voices to express our predicament..
we just work hard to make the ends meet..
sometimes satisfied with the status quo that we have....

yet,
these silent voters have limit...
sometimes it is the time to say "enough is enough!"

we are looking for a sincere individual who is willing to work for us..
to voice out our happiness and sadness...
to explain to us every single act and plan....made by the government...

we pray for a peaceful existance..
we pray for the younger generation to have their right to better education and protection
we pray for our lives to be at ease...to have a good and deep sleep at night...
we pray that we are able to spend our hard earned cash...to reward ourselves for the job well done...

sadly, nowadays..
people are shouting rude words in the house of parliament
people are fighting for individul agenda in the house of parliament....
how am i suppossed to have faith in these people...??
is it worth it for me to line up for 30minutes to cast my vote in the next election??
do my vote will bring good to the country or just helping some moron to be in power????

i deeply reconsidering my position in the society..
society that is full of hatred and lies ..
and sadly...the politicians are promoting these spiteful attitude to the people..



thinking...reflecting...thinking.......

dunia dah terbalik

dulu..
kalau yang jahat dan buas dan kurang ajar..
semua tu d kaitkan dgn pelajar lelaki...

tapi
zaman dah baru..
dunia dah berubah...

"teacher, ade 4 org budak perempuan nak kena buang sekolah"
"kenape?"
"depa tiru tandatangan cikgu, lepas tu isi borang balik awal dan p dating"
"x kan kot?? berani nye"
"bukan tu saja, depa bubuh nama pelajar kelas sebelah dekat borang tu. bila ustaz cari, depa ingat depa selamat la. nasib pak guard kenai depa"





ish...ish...ish...ish....

of man and god

yesterday was my "off" day..
this year, my daily life is full of academical activities...
extra classes day and night and weekend..
the only free day for me is monday and wednesday....
*sigh*....

yet, i am happy..
the extra classes bring income to me....
thus extra allocation for fun time...

yesterday debab and me went for a movie..
'clash of the titan"...
wow....the plot was fast, no mushy mushy love scene and the subject facinated me...
zeus, medusa, haedes....
names that frequent to our ears yet a bit misty bout their existance...
so...
i really enjoyed the movie...


movie, cinema and wayang...
aku memang suka tgk wayang...
i have lots of favourite.....

dulu zaman student..aku dgn kawan baik ilya...
pasti akan terpacak depan wayang for latest movie...
tempat wajib...
wayang rex dekat petaling street and wayang apa tah...
depan hotel federal on the way to bukit bintang...

now,
wayang wayang tu sume dah x de...
semua movie baru akan masuk ke cinema d malaysia on thursday...
normally akan ade midnight show and morning show a week earlier...to promote the new movie...
so, aku dgn ilya akan pasti berada depan kedua-dua wayang ini to be the first to watch the movies....
lepak depan wayang pukul 8 pagi....seronok sangat..
tgk uncle tua wayang rex...sapu sampah...
tgk org dbkl sapu sampah....tgk puduraya masih kekal sibuk....
i enjoyed KL at that time....
ini semua masa tahun 1994-1997...

1994-1997
zaman KL masih suci murni dari pendatang tanpa izin...
jalan kaki dari puduraya ke sogo...sangat best..
rasa selamat je...

balik malaysia tahun 1999...
adui...semak ...
semak perut, semak dada dan semak hidung....
they are everywhere....
x heran orang dan x hormat orang...
aura busuk ketiak...ya allah....menyucuk...

masa tu aku tekad...
KL bagi aku adalah semak...
even KL adalah kampung halaman aku....tapi bagi aku semak...
even KL banyak attraction die....tapi bagi aku semak....

aku x dapat rasa sense of ownership bila berada d KL..
aku rasa mcm aku tenggelam dgn aura aura asing....
aku lebih selesa sebagai orang kampung.

clash of the titan..
is about believing in yourself...
believing the willpower in you...
and accepting kekurangan diri yet never deter urself to be great..

aku harap aku dapat jadi mcm persieus...
half man , half god...
yet..
he chooses to be a man...
to be a real man...



sebab tu aku suka ajar poem "if" by rudyard kipling.. sajak tu sangat membantu students aku memotivasikan diri untuk menjadi yg terbaik....

talian hidup

hidup aku x lengkap kalau xde handphone aku yg satu nie
nokia 58oo express music...
tapi ini bukan iklan..cuma nak meluahkan kepuasan hati

sebelum nie aku pakai sony...
bila nak tukar..aku buat research sikit....
yelah, harga handphone sekarang boleh tahan..so nak la beli yang worth it..

apa yg aku nak dari handphone mudah saja..yelah, aku pun bukan IT savvy sangat.
aku just nak yang ade music player, camera dan yg wifi..
so, setelah timbang2..aku pun beli handphone nie...

ooohhhh...
aku cukup puas hati....i get more

cik nokia aku

apa yang ade....

1. camera yang hasil sangat memuaskan hati....kebanyakan gambar dalam blog nie dari kamera handphone nie

2. dgn memory 8g...dalam tepon aku sekarang ade 6movies...ade 9 video lee seung gi dan yg menariknye...ade 8 video rancangan kegemaran aku.."2days1night"..

3. ade banyak lagu..yg kalau dihimpun dan d dengar...almost takes 8 hours...

4. yang menarik...tokey kedai tu siap install GARMIN untuk aku...

wahhh....sangat seronok ade GARMIN...bagi aku yg suka jalan2 dan ronda2 dgn debab....GARMIN nie memang best...

cakap je nak ke mana...abis die cari. yg bestnye...die bleh carikan jalan yg paling pendek..sampai bawa ke jalan2 yg kita x tau wujud...

puas hati...

aku boleh guna wifi d mana2...berfacebook d merata tempat...

puas hati sungguh..

aku harap jodoh aku dgn cik nokia nie kekal berpanjangan

xpe berbelanja sikit...kalau dapat beri kepuasan dan dapat bertahan lama...

ahad nie GARMIN kena tolong aku cari hotel tempat seminar muet...hahahahaha

good teachers

i found this article...

written by peter beidler, an english professor.

i hope it will inspire other..

what makes a good teacher?

1. a good teacher must have the desire to be a good teacher. students do recognize teachers who really want to be good teachers.



2. a good teacher takes risks



3. a good teacher has positive attitude



4. a good teacher never have enough time and never finish work, yet never complain about the long hours because they love what they do..



5. a good teacher thinks of teaching as a form of parenting. knowing when to be firm, when to give in.



6. a good teacher gives students confidence. they realize that what the students learn is less important than the learning process itself.



7. a good teacher is able to keep students off balance. complacent students are bored students.



8. a good teacher tries to motivate students



9. a good teacher listens to students

facebook and photos

my dear friend uploaded several photos to her facebook..
this is a person who always refuses to put her self photo as profile pic..

the photos are classic..
they show that once upon a time.....
there were groups of malaysian students, 5 groups..
were located around UK with the hope that these students-teacher would become
a dedicated teacher...

hehehehehe...
my students were soooo damn shocked to see the photos...

"amboi , kurus nye teacher"...
"waaa...ganas la kenkawan teacher"...
"teacher pernah dok UK????".......


hahahahahahaha
what they see hanya lah surface saje....apa yg photo tu tunjuk...
but for me...
i see more, i see beyond it...

the photos show that...
even all of us are different....family background, race and religion...
yet, being away from motherland...we were 1
konsep 1malaysia tu...dah lama wujud....
and i believe it all started with sincere friendship and sense of trust...

now..
almost 11 years that this batch of students left UK...
some are lecturers, some are teachers, some are officers...
all are well....

and through facebook..
it stirs memories....strenghten relationship....

thank you chipot.....





i was soooo thin then....how??? nak diet mcm malas.....

bees

actually i hate bees..

why??

my dad used to work for Agricultural Department in Penang.
there was a time when they decided to promote bees in penang.
so, he went to Australia for a month if i am not mistaken ..
to learn about bees keeping.

then, we started to have a number of bees hives, which were put in boxes, around the house.
when it was time to harvest the honey...
he wore the gear and did it himself.

yet, the bees always came into our house...
and i, being the blurred and careless type, always stepped on them.

OMG...the sting was horrible...
do you know that their stings are bees' final defence weapon??
they would die if they stung someone.

i always endded up with swollen feet, fingers and neck...
and the swollen part tended to be itchy....

so,
since then..i really hate bees...
yet bees actually a noble creature...
they are mentioned in Quran....
my dad used to say that bees are intelligent.....

but be careful with bees...

why am i ranting about bees??
just because........

excited...

love to try new things..
dah lama jeling blog hosemate i...
ade add dok bling bling...

jelessssssssssssssss

hari nie..
dgn keazaman yang tinggi....

yess....
my first add is deodorant!!!

hehehehehe
x sangka kan...dulu iklan d tv and paper je...
never thought kita consumer pun boleh jadi pengiklan.....

hehehehehehe
macam channel tv sendiri plak...
ala ala oprah winfrey

change..

bored with the old background and layout..
boleh leka bila browsing through all the webs...

cantik x???
hahahahhaha....

aku suke!!!!!!!!

i've learned that....part 4

i've learned that no matter the consequences,
those who are honest with themselves get further in life

i've learned that your life can be changed in a matter of hours
and i've learned that when a friend cries out to you,
you will find the strength to help

i've learned that people you care most in life are taken from you too soon

i've learned to love and be loved

i've learned...

i've learned that it's hard to determined where to draw the line between being nice
and not hurting people's feelings
and standing up for what you believe

i've learned....
i've learned....
i've learned...

i've learned.



motipnye: last year was a challenge for me....i hate going to work, i kept filling forms asking for transfer...it was all because of that horrible person. Yet, students' interest, my passion towards teaching and supportive friends kept me strong till the end of year. Today, i am free. i realize that person will never bother me, that person will never break me, that person is not a cent worth for me...i've learned if your intention is pure, God will forever be by your side.

i've learned that......part 3

i've learned that no matter how good a friend is,
they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that

i've learned that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others;
sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself

i've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken,
the world doesn't stop for your grief

parlimen or perli-man?

aku suka baca dan ikut perkembangan politik
entah...sedari kecik sampai sekarang...
tapi aku neutral....
x pernah masuk mana mana pihak....
dan semestinya undi aku adalah rahsia...

kenape aku suka politik???
aku suka tgk gelagat orang politik nie....
ade yg bebetul ikhlas....masuk politik sebab nak perjuangkan rakyat..
ade yg hanya pandang..keuntungan yg boleh d capai bile d atas....
ade yg join kerana yakin mampu mengubah sesuatu...
bermacam niat yg ade....

tapi ..personally
aku tgk sekarang dah berubah...
org politik mcm dah x de arah.....
sibuk nak menjatuhkan sesame sendiri....
maka keluar la istilah yg kadang org2 kampung x paham...

"napolean kecil"....firaun kecil".......

"99% of politics is deciding whom to blame"...

tu la.....
sibuk kan mencari salah orang lain.....
helloooooo!!!!!!!
rakyat dah bagi korang tiket masuk parlimen....tolong la perjuangkan nasib kitaorang...
nie....macam budak sekolah.....bergaduh x henti.....
perangai mengalahkan budak sekolah rendah.....

pastu sibuk pasang satu lagi.....
"erm...datuk dah tegur, baju i singkat sangat...x sesuai sebagai status i isteri ahli parlimen"..

meloya aku baca...caption pada satu gambar artis nie dgn hubby YB die.....
aku x salahkan artis tu....itu dah memang nature diorang.....
yelah, before dapat tunjuk bakat...kena la "tunjuk" sikit.....kasi up skit...
tapi yg Yb tu......
kalau nak pasang satu lagi...cari la yg berilmu sikit,
yang bila bercakap...ade aura2 ilmiah dan intelektual.....yang dapat melengkapkan keperibadian kita sebagai wakil kepada rakyat.....

nie x....
dah p cari "trophy wife"...
what do u expect??????

so..
jgn marah bile golongan muda x mau daftar sebagai pengundi
jgn marah bile golongan muda x mau keluar mengundi....
jgn marah bile golongan muda buat undi protes...
jgn marah dan tuduh golongan muda lupa sejarah...
jgn marah bile golongan muda buat x heran je......

sebab
kitaorang dah muak dgn "samarinda", "akasia" dan "cerekarama"...





motipnye: hujung bulan ini aku akan ke perli-man, bawa pelajar2 ke sana. aku harap sangat x de insiden2 memual dan memalukan berlaku semasa persidangan nanti. aku xmau generasi students aku give up dgn org politik dan mengabaikan negara.

my trip 1 - italy

2 years in uk allowed me to see the world..
to explore and experience things that i only saw and read......
things that sometimes i doubted their mere existance.....
as they are always surrounded by myths and folklore....

one of my favourite countries is italy.....

during matriculation...we learnt "merchant of Venice"...by shakespeares...
we read about ponte rialto.....as "ponte" means bridge...
i could never imagine back then that venice is surrounded by water....
the image of gondola..is like a movie set.....

but as i set my feet in venice.....
i was ...............ermmm...
beautiful and old!!!!

ponte rialto

i remember ida and aida were busy buying scarf here....heheheh

while walking around venice..i saw a house...

the label read....Cassanova.....

OMG.....Cassanova is not merely a word......it was someone's name...

and this person had lived his life in venice....

leaning tower of pisa

remarkable is it????

i believe leaning tower of pisa is in tuscany, italy.

i always read about it when i was a child...

i remember that i stood for quite some times...mesmerized by the sight of this tower...

i could not believe that i had the opportunity to see it with my own eyes..

florence, italy

then we when to florence....

famous with leather market...

i bought a wallet for my dad, a handbag for my big sister.....

ida, aida and me were busy shopping in florence....everything was sooo damn cheap...

all designer's stuff...armani, gucci and basic stuff such as benetton and guess...

i bought armani jeans and benetton.....

no wonder people love to shop in Milan....italy is cheap...

even their policemen are wearing armani and versace....

but why not...

they are just soo damn good lookking..

talking bout tall, dark and handsome.....

juliet's house, verona

we went to verona...

the famous scene for shakespeares's romeo and juliet...

we went to juliet's house.....

notice the bronze stature at the yard???

that is juliet...if u touch her breast...it suppossed to bring good luck....

really glad that i have the opportunity to see all these...

more to comes...

motipnye: a big bus of malaysian students...travelled together for almost 13 days to experience 6 countries....enjoyed the trip..but i hate the part of sleeping in a sleeping bag during the beginning of autumn season.....sooooo cooolllddddddd......

daddy long legs..

hari nie pergi collect roadtax cik city....
balik dari Motoria, singgah shopping complex...
biasa lah cuci mata, usha apa yang baru.....

bile ke shopping complex...
wajib masuk bookstore...popular, boarders, mph...
tah, rasa energized je...seronok tgk buku2 yg pelbagai genre....

tgh jenjalan d popular......
ade longgokan buku warna merah...
cara kulit buku die classic sangat....
nampak mcm buku lama....

hampir nak jerit je bile aku jumpa satu buku nie.....

DADDY LONG-LEGS.....

i bought these three classic

daddy long-legs by jean webster

masa aku kecil dulu..

ade satu animated siri...tajuk Daddy long-legs.

minat sangat cite tu...

cite pasai anak yatim yg dapat bantuan dari seseorang yg die x kenal....

die sering berutus surat dgn penderma nie.........

ingat lagi...

daddy long legs tu...ade tongkat....

tapi sayang..aku x pernah tahu ending cite nie.....

just imagine ..perasan aku bile jumpa buku nie....

mcm nak cepat2 je lari dari popular and baca....

eager to know , if Judy and daddy long-legs will end up together....

how i wish....

"we belong to each other now really and truly, no make-believe. doesn't it seem queer for me to belong to someone at last? it seems very, very sweet"

the last line in judy's letter to daddy long-legs....

how sweet......;)

motipnye: i don't give a damn with AF ... it sucks the life out of me.....

4 wedding and a funeral

a few days back
i watched "4 wedding and a funeral"....
a poem was read during the service.....such a lovely and sad poem...

i always remember that particular poem..
not just because it is in the movie....
but it was the questions for literature paper when i did my matriculation in mpik..


twelve songs....w.h auden 1907-1973

stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone
prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone
silence the pianos and with muffled drum
bring out the coffin, let the mourners come

let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead
scribbling on the sky the message He Is Dead
put crepe bows round the white necks of the public doves
let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves

he was my North, my South, my East and West
my working week and my Sunday rest
my noon, my midnight, my talk, my song
i thought that love would last for ever: i was wrong

the stars are not wanted now: put out every one
pack up the moon and dismantle the sun
pour away the ocean and sweep up the wood
for nothing now can ever come to any good



motipnye: recently i was facinated with poems related to death...dunno why. it makes me see my life in different perspectives...comparing possibilities.

i've learned that.....part 2

i've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words.
it may be the last time you'll see them

i've learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done
when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequencess

i've learned that there are people who love you dearly
but just don't know how to show it

i've learned that sometimes when i'm angry,
i have the right to be angry but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel

i've learned that true friendship continues to grow
even over the longest distance and
i've learned that the same goes for true love

i've learned that.....part 1

got this from an article in NST ....


i've learned that you cannot make someone love you.
all you can do is be somenone who can be loved.
the rest is up to them

i've learned that no matter how much i care,
some people just don't care back

i've learned that it takes years to build up trust
and only seconds to destroy it

i've learned that it's not what you have in your life,
but whom you have in life that counts

i've learned that you should not compare yourself to the best of others can do
but to the best you can do

i've learned that it's not what happens to people,
it's what they do about it

i've learned that no matter how thinly you slice it,
there are always two sides


motipnye: hidup dengan lebih berhati-hati

my list part 3 - things that i hate

1. i hate rats.....
2. i hate termites...
3. i hate frogs....
4. i hate ants...
5. i hate folding clothes...
6. i hate akademi fantasia...
7. i hate mulut longkang
8. i hate my broadband...ocassionally...
9. i hate relief at school....
10. i hate "plastic" people...

hajah norriah mat rasit

lepak dekat facebook tadi.....
terbaca my sister's shoutout......
mentioning bout my parents' latest trip....surabaya...

so, i would like to write bout this particular lucky and blessed lady......
my mother....
mother of 8 jumpy, outspoken, well-educated children...
a loyal friend, companion, PA and secretary to hj zakaria...
hjh norriah mat rasit....

she comes from a humbled family...being the only girl of 3 siblings..
from a small kampung used to be called as Kg Teluk Buluh....but now the kampung is known as Kg Raja...
as the old custom and practise...she married hj zakaria..her own cousin...

now..what i like bout hjh norriah??
mak paling sporting and selambe.....
tapi mulut yg lazer...buat kita terdiam kejap pikir balik apa yg dia sound..
mak paling pandai masak...sure gemuk kalau cuti panjang d rumah...( tapi sekarang hjh norriah dah x masak...dapur dah d kecilkan....biasa la busy)
x pernah kerje dalam hidup...tapi harta bertimbun??? how????
biasala...menghimpun kekayaan dgn duit hj zakaria ..hahahahah

now...
hjh norriah dah makin busy....
meeting x henti....aktif dengan aktiviti kemasyarakatan........
sampai kan tailor aku pun heran....
yelah..hjh norriah lebih kerap antar buat baju dari anak nye yg bekerjaya...hahahah
baju kurung die pun sume dah upgrade...kain wajib dari Jakel..
yg lain x mau...panas...hehehehhehe

hjh norriah..belajar x tinggi mana....
tapi now...die dah banyak jenjalan tgk dunia.....
ke mekah dah 2 kali, indonesia tu...dah jadi negara kedua die....
tembok besar china dah pernah d panjatnye.....
bab2 airport, naik kapal terbang nie...jgn tipu la.....die lagi cekap..
yg heran nye....naik bus x berani ...
ilmu tajwid hjh norriah...jgn d cabar...
hj zakaria pun berguru dgn die...
ada satu lagi kehebatan hjh norriah....
kutip barang guna kaki.....kakakaka kepit dgn jari kaki...
ilmu kutip dgn kaki sekarang..dapat kepada cucu sulung kesayangan die..ba'atun.


tapi
die mcm die....rilek je....
masih mak yg selambe...
opah yg sempoi.......
pukul 11 pagi...jgn telefon rumah...dia x akan ada...
dia akan d kedai makcik norziah...jiran sebelah rumah...
biasa la..beli satu barang..tapi gossip yg lama....

esok lusa dah berangkat ke surabaya....
aritu dah ke acheh dan padang.....
hope both of u enjoy ur lives...both of u have done soooo much for 8 of us..
spend all you can...make new friends..enjoy ur trip....
8 of us will pray for ur health adn happiness..



motipnye: erm..erm..erm... betul ke mak nak raya dekat oversea tahun nie?? nak pakai kot bulu2 sambil sambut aidilfitri dekat malaysia hall???? sapa nak buat ketupat raya tahun nie???? uwaaaaaaaaaa................

glee

i always love glee...
maybe because of the plot and definitely i enjoy all the songs...
its OST is blasting in my car......

what i like about glee???
because it definitely portrays the reality in schools...
the teachers and students...their ups and downs...

i believe in every school...
there is always "mr will shue"....
a dedicated teacher..trying his best to do his job.
with limited budget...little support from the admin.....
he tries to bring out the best from his students

" a good teacher never gives the best answer, he only points to the correct direction and let the students experience the journey. then, they will learn something"
that what will shue has said....


if there is good..there is evil..
every school will not be the same without this evil character
"sue slyvester"......
always believes that she is the best......others are pest
crushing everyone around her to make sure that she remains the best..

i always love the principal...
the first asian principal .. he is funny...

the students...
racheal..always positive and believe she is the best....
with 2 gay guys as fathers...
kurt..the beautiful boy...
enjoy his voice in "defying gravity".....
finn...a good boy...

i always perceive that school is the microcosm of the real world...
the best place to prepare before venturing to the reality...
school is full of deceive, knaves and wicked witches..

survive school, you survive life....
is it?????


as if...........





motipnye: finally mr shue knows that his wife fakes her pregnancy....hope finn will discover the truth soon. he is a nice person and deserves to know the truth....as for me......keep singing "take a bow" and "no air"... in the car ...

bila nak sedar????

geram betul aku dgn budak2 kelas belakang d sekolah aku...
datang sekolah kerana nak menyusahkan orang lain..bukan nak belajar pun..

kaunseling ke, marah ke, tegur ke........x herannn...
sakit ati betul menengok kelaku diorang..
tunjuk hebat depan cikgu, mcm la diorang dah mahir sepak terajang hidup di dunia realiti ini....

apa, ko ingat dgn motor sebijik, handphone satu, ko dah hebat???
hello!!!!!!!
sedar la sikit....

hari nie exam...aku dapat relief kelas yg "hebat" nie....
punya la cuak aku nak masuk..sebab last thursday, aku baru je sound,marah and gaduh dgn kelas nie....yelah, aku tgh mengajar kelas sebelah, dihempoknye kerusi kayu sampai pecah!!!!!!
aku pun sound ar...kurang ajar sangat.....

xpe, aku masuk...
exam mula 11.30......11.40 baru ade 3 orang...
mcm aku pulak yg nak amik spm tahun nie.......

11.40 masuk la sorang demi sorang...
tetiba aku dgr...sayup2 bunyi loceng......ceeeeeewwwwwaaahhhhhhh

ade minah "spark" nie...selambe badak pakai rantai loceng kaki...
aku angin satu badan...aku paksa buka...

aku edar kertas soalan..
suruh check semua, arah tulis nama ....

die tulis nama..lepas tu the whole kelas tido!!!!
ya allah!!!! spesis ape pun aku x tau la......

aku cubit sorang2...suruh bangun and jawab...
geram aku....
kenape pemikiran masih mundur even banyak yg cikgu2 dah buat???
kenape masih x sedar, pendidikan lah pemandu hidup kita d masa hadapan????
kenape x de sekelumit pun kecintaan kepada ilmu???

ape yg korang harapkan pada masa hadapan kalau ini yg korang buat???



motipnye: area aku nie even x de 3G, tapi moden. tapi kenape pemikiran bebudak nie masih xmau terima apa yang cikgu pesan??? bile tegur suruh study....tau ape yg di jawab??? "kalau sume org jadi pandai, siapa nak kerje kan bendang? teacher nak makan apa?". to my dear students out there striving to be the best...i salute you!!!! you guys are extraordinary people living an ordinary life.

roald dahl

one of my fav authorS....

and i just found out that he has a special day for him......


it started when i was in form 1, i was in SMK A ..yes the A stands for AGAMA.......

hehehehe i was in SMK A IRSHAD, for three years before i fled to mara junior science college
i always in the library during recess....

it has the nancy drew collection, enid blyton

and

roald dahl



roald dahl wrote mostly children story books...

quentin blake was always his loyal illustrator...

i believe roald dahl's books would not be a roald dahl's without his work

my fav
a genius girl with special ability...
funny classmates and monster head master who likes to bully the students and teachers

this is dahl's autobio......

don't you know that witches live among us???

they are bald and hate children.....

they even have an annual conference...

alway think that BFG is dahl himself..

suka aku bile johnny depp jadi willy wonka..

sebijik mcm yg aku imagine.....

motipnye: next month aku nak li box set dahl mcm gambar atas...aku dah jumpa dekat Boarder Queensbay...hahaahhahahahaha

my little brown book

during my orientation week in UK, our co-ordinator Ann Brumfit brought all of us to The Globe, London to watch Shakespeare' s Henry the 5th.
i bought this little brown book at the gift shop.

since then, i use this book to record all beautiful and meaningful poems, phrases and saying....
this little book is always in my bag...

time,

is too slow for those who wait

too swift for those who fear

too long for those who grieve

too short for those who rejoice

but for those who love,

time is eternity

Lady Jane Fellow

she read this for her sister, Princess Diana during the funeral service 060997

when i read newspaper, books or simply looking at advertisements...
anything interesting...
i will copy them all into my brown book...

watch with glittering eyes

the whole world around you

because the greatest secrets are always hidden

in the most unlikely places

those who don't believe in magic

will never find it

roald dahl

my fav writer.....

when you are good to others, you are best to yourself

benjamin franklin

all the privilege i claim for my sex...is that of loving longest, when existence or when hope is gone - Anne Elliet, character in Jane Austen's Persuasion

99% of politics is deciding whom to blame - John Updike

if a man has'nt discovered something that he will die for, he isn't fit to live - Martin Luther King Jr

if i should die and leave you here awhile

do not like others, sore undone,

who keep long vigils by the silent dust and weep

for my sake-turn again to life and smile

nerving thy heart and trembling hands to do something to comfort other hearts than thine

complete those dear unfinished tasks of mine

and i,

perchance, may therein comfort you

motipnye: hehehe..for me...pembelajaran berlaku d mana2.....sentiasa bersedia..

do not weep

do not stand at my grave and weep;
i am not there. i do not sleep.
i am a thousand winds that blow
i am the diamond glints on snow
i am the sunlight on ripened grain
i am the gentle autumn rain
when you awaken in the morning's hush
i am the swift uplifting rush
of quiet birds in circled flight
i am the soft stars that shine at night
do not stand at my grave and cry
i am not here. i did not die



this poem was left in an envelope by a soldier, Steven Cummins for his parents. he died while in service in Northen Island. The envelope was instructed to be opened in the event of his death.


i dedicated this poem to Cikgu Halim Murad, my boss in PSS, my mentor, my brother and a good friend who has lost his dear sister this morning. his sister died due to cancer.....



motipnye: masa kita... hak Dia...

langit d kangar

segar je d hidup d kampung nie
drive petang2 sambil minum air jambu batu 88.....fresh je rasa......

awan2 yang rilek je tergantung d atas sawah bendang.....

tgk awan boleh leka.....tenang je jiwa...

motipnye : kadang kala kita kena stop kejap dan observe sekitar kita....benda kecil dan insignificant nie la yg kadang jadi sumber ketenangan dan kekuatan........

sakit hati x bertempat....

aku dah lama dah....

berbulu dgn seorang manusia nie....



kerje die....forever sakit hati dgn aku...

yang aku heran...aku x pernah amik pot pun pasal die....

kerana...

mulut die lancang n lazer......x pernah sayang mulut..

kalau bercakap...die sorang je betul.....

ape yang die fikir....die je betul....



aku mudah...

orang macam tu..x de benda penting...aku x pandang pun....

dari aku sakit hari....



tapi..

die tu sesuka hati je dok sound aku....

geram jugak......





1. i am single......

aku biasa la...happy forever d sekolah tu...

yelah, nak pikir ape....makan?...kedai banyak dekat kodiang nie....radix chicken house pun 5 minit dari rumah aku....

entertainment???....aku rasa nak ke KL?.... aku p je..

tension...aku redah je balik penang.....nak heran ape....



"tu la hang...awat x menikah???...tgk aku...bini ada, anak ada...hang apa ada"

hello??????

ade aku menyusah idup ko kalau aku x kahwin?????

now, die yg aku tgk tunggang langgang....buat kes dgn bini....



2. dulu aku bawa kancil je....

ye lah, baru dapat lesen..mana aku berani kete besor...

sayang tul aku dgn kancil tu....pandai jaga tuan..

kalau nak rosak, die rosak dekat tempat strategik....



"hang nie..apa la. gaji besaq..dok bawa kancil tu? hang nak simpan duit buat apa?"

tetiba je sound aku dalam library...

la...ape kes mamat nie...lantak aku la.....

bila aku beli cik city aku....diam terus...

nak je aku p ronda2 depan rumah die tayang cik city aku masa aku memula beli...geram tol!!!

now, die pulak yg naik kancil....honda die aku x nampak dah..



3. aku minah master

aku bebenornye malas nak buat master...penat la

tapi sebab hafiz nak ade member die p penang...aku join je la.

sian pulak, semangat mamat tu cari borang....

dgn izin Allah, tamat la kitaorang 2005 aritu.....



"bodoh la hang nie, ade master dok tunggu apa lagi dekat sekolah nie???"

"kalau aku x tunggu dah!!!"

hello....suka hati aku la.....

aku tau la ko tu frust x dapat buat master....lepas tu riuh satu sekolah ade org nak tolong masuk Poli...tapi sampai sekarang sama je dgn aku...d sekolah jugak...





motipnye: kalau kena kutuk ke....rilek je la...bior kan lah. banyak benda yg lebih seronok nak d pikir dari pikir mulut longkang orang lain...... baik aku pikir mcm mana nak tambahkan bilangan budak aku yang dapat A SPM.......heheheheh rekod aku setakat ini ialah...baru 22org...

pakya yg busy

"jupa, sume org tanya mak...nape bagi pakya kawin lain"
"huh???? pakya nak kawin lain??"

"tak la, pakya p merata borak bagitau nak mendirikan masjid baru"
"cuyah pun kata pakya nak kawin lagi"

"la, bukan pakya jadi AJK buat masjid baru dekat market tu?"
"iye la, tapi bile sebut "mendirikan masjid baru" sume ingat pakya nak kawin lain!"...


hahahahahahahahahahahahaha
hahahahahahahahhaahahahah
gelak besar aku dalam library....YM dgn Bulat.....

"siapa la nak Pakya tu??"
fuyooooo statement ganas Bulat..


motipnye: bile bercakap bagi jelas....bagi terang....jgn ade ambiguity.....sian mak menjawab gosip gosip liar hahahahahaha.......

aku ini mesin

ok..ok..ok...
blur aku nie kadang menyebabkan aku selalu jadi mangsa..
tapi x sedar....hehehehehehehehe

aku d sekolah berjawatan GURU AKADEMIK TING 6..
kenkonon hebat la penjenamaan ting 6 nie...cikgu pun d upgrade..
bile upgrade, aku nie kenkonon xboleh ajar form lain..keutamaan pada form 6

jadi...
sekolah bagi aku satu kelas lain...5 Kemanusian 2
tetiba jadual baru keluar....
5K2 aku d tambah masa jadi 6 waktu...
mcm la 5 waktu tu aku x cukup nak gaduh2, jeling2 and cubit dgn bebudak tu....
nak juga d top up nye.....
xpe...aku blur lagi

aleh aleh....ade plak 1 masa 5 Kemanusian 1..
huisssshhhh....5K2 aku pun letih gaduh...nak bagi aku gaduh dgn kelas sebelah?????
xpe...aku blur lagi

kemudian keluar senarai tuition HIKMAH....
aku kena ajar 2 kelas....5 Teknologi dan juga 5K1.....
okeeehhhh....aku menurut perintah....
aku blur lagi..

kemudian baru aku perasaan....
ade 6 kelas tingkatan 5 d smktb...
aku ajar 5Ten, 5K1 dan 5K2???????????

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa......
baru aku perasan...

cissss....
baik bagi je aku ajar satu sekolah....mudah kan????







motipnye: teaching is difficult when students are difficult.......teaching is easy when students are easy...teacher?????